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Robyn M
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Journal of the Wandering Mind
The adult student. In the later stages of last year I decided I wanted to start working towards a university degree. Why? Because I felt ready for the challenge. A degree won't grant me a qualification which will suddenly allow me to do the job I have always dreamed of doing because, frankly, I am doing that job already! I want to do this for me, to understand more about this physical world around me. I want to do this for the sheer pleasure if learning! One step at a time. I think part of this 'kicked off' because of something I took up last year: learning the classical guitar. I found a great deal of enjoyment in learning to understand not just the notes music but the nuances within a piece of music. I never imagined that this joy of learning would take me to university! At first I looked into what courses I might like to take, and found classes I would never have dreamed of! I looked, examined, tossed up, and decided what I wanted to do. It was, however, one thing to talk about it, bit was another to go ahead and do it! I was not scared though, it all seemed so natural. Even when I enrolled and paid it all seemed natural. The scariest part, the part that made me think 'Oh what have I done?' was when the course material arrived! A folder holding a stack of pages two inches thick!!! When I started looking through it I really wanted to back out and run! I continued to read. I continue to panic. But the more I read, the more I thought to myself 'I can do this.' And I can! In fact, not only can I do this, but I am doing this! The first paper started this week. If I can do this, anyone can. So, if you doubt yourself? Stop. Believe that you can do anything. It all begins with one step. I am ready for this new journey. Some people have suggested I go to university full time and get the degree quickly, but I am taking it slowly doing a paper or two (or maybe even three) a year, and continuing with what is truly important to me: writing and spiritual evolution. Anyway...I'll keep you posted. I am sitting here, writing, with our newly adopted kitten on my lap, and all would be well if she had not just farted! The new kitten, named Isis, joined our family a week ago -- an unwanted kitten adopted from the Cats Protection League. I consider it a great privilege to take an animal into our family, love her and give her a home. I am astounded at the number of people out there who adopt a kitten and then, when the kitten grows up a bit, want to sell it or give it away. It is appalling, be it a cat, a dog or a bird. Here are some rules I think are only fair:
I am appalled every time I read of unwanted pets for sale. These are living creatures, with feelings. You only have to look into the eyes of an abandoned cat or dog to see its pain. You have only to look into the eyes of a kitten who has found a wonderful home, to know the peace and contentment that they feel. We have a responsibility to those weaker and smaller than ourselves. We have a responsibility to nurture the life of this world. My role is to teach, to share what I know, and share what I learn. Why? Because I chose this role. I came here to do this. Yes, I am a daughter, a sister, a wife and a mother (my most cherished and devoted role), and a friend, and yes, I chose those roles—some to get me here, and some to help me learn. To be all that I can be I need to understand the human experience. Facing a problem means I have the opportunity to find a solution for that problem. When I find a solution I am able to help someone else find their solution for a similar problem. If one person can find solution, so can all people. All we need is to desire to change. I am committed to helping all people find a way to make their life as divinely beautiful as possible, given our human limitations and the demands of the material world. I have struggled with the issue of income, only to arrive at the realization that money has nothing to do with my work. It does not (and can not) drive my work, or inspire my work. The novels that I create are a collaboration with my Teachers, who are, consciously, a part of the I AM Consciousness. Through parable we tell a story and teach. We share what we hope, and believe, will help you. In this ‘economic climate’ it is difficult to persuade a publisher that readers are even seeking such parables or teachings or even that they are seeking help. I suppose I could write a channeled book on ‘the truth’, but to be completely open and honest: I love to write and I always have. That is how I know that this is the right avenue through which I am to work. Obviously when I talk to people, face to face, or on the phone, I am able to help them directly. But a book can travel the world, and be shared, poured over, dog-eared, and either treasured or dismissed and tossed aside in the air port departure lounge (where perhaps someone else will pick it up). I believe in the glory of the ‘wonder’ that we feel when we read spiritually inspired fiction. I will continue to work towards getting these books that are manifesting through me published, and I know that the world is changing and people are ready. I am blessed in many areas of my life, I am blessed with loved ones, cherished friends, cherished fellow travelers and Soulmates. To help you I have to keep learning and growing, and continue to evolve, which is not a problem as I have never been content to stop and sit and stay where I am—spiritually speaking. If you showed me round one corner I would always want to know what was round the next corner, just as if you showed me one level of understanding, I would always want to know what was at the next level, and the next and the next. Unconditional love. Unconditional acceptance. I know that these two are paramount to the human existence, to our happiness, to our serenity. They are also issues many people have trouble with. Unconditional love and unconditional acceptance of our self must come first. If we do not have that, then we can not give it to another. I cannot share unconditional love with you if I do not unconditionally love myself, just as I cannot accept you unconditionally if I do not unconditionally accept myself. Our first great relationship must be with ourselves. This path that we walk is a path of Self discovery. Only when we come to know our self can we truly love our self. The big question is: who am I? ... You know those quiet peaceful moments when all is right with the world? That's you. You know the joy at the smell of freshly mown grass in summer? That’s you. You know that love that you feel when you embrace your child? That’s you. You know the safety that you feel when your own parents wrap their arms around you? That’s you. You know that feeling in your heart when you see a beautiful kitten or puppy? That’s you. You know that peace when you are sitting on the doorstep with a cup of tea just relaxing and enjoying a beautiful day? That’s you. That is who you are. I love that person. So should you.
As you will see from the homepage, (and hopefully you will click through to the KorTar page) I am now an authorized distributor of KorTar Metaphysics Tools. Why? Because:
a) they work Sometimes we find tools that can help us on our path, and sometimes they are unaffordable, but these tools are affordable. I have shared mine with a number of people who have received benefit from them, so why not share that with other people? I live in Christchurch, New Zealand, so obviously I am very accessible to people in the south island of New Zealand, and would like to encourage all people who are interested in their spiritual evolution to seriously consider the things that they come across which may assist them in some way. I am not saying 'buy a KorTar', (that is for you to decide) I am saying, pay attention to what you come across, be it the scent of a rose, the sight of a sunrise, the feel of a gentle breeze, a crystal from a crystal shop, a massage, a healing treatment, time with a friend. There are many ways we heal and grow. There are many simple things we can do. A lot of people find a walk along the beach to be both healing and calming. For people not in New Zealand, I would be happy to answer any questions that you might have, or at least to find the answers for you! These are days when we should consider that which uplifts us, as the news on the television and in the newspapers is all doom and gloom. Very little positive news makes it into the news, because the media is focused on sensationalism and sales. Personally I think it would do us all a great service if we did not listen to the news and instead sat outside and marveled at the beauty of nature. It is time to simplify everything, and to stand lovingly in our own strength. We are not driftwood cast into the ocean, we are not being tossed at the whim of everyone around us UNLESS that is our choice? I personally take control of all that I feel and say and do. My words are not caused by anyone else, they are my choice. My actions are my choice, and not to be attributed to another person. My emotions and moods are my own, and I will not blame them on another. Sometimes, if I am in the process of a spiritual transition I find myself a bit 'all over the place' and I simply accept that this is a process and I observe it carefully, paying attention to what it is bringing forth in me. For what is coming forth is that which I need to pay attention to. Perhaps there is something I need to change or heal. My KorTars help to bring things to the surface, they help to balance my thoughts, they help to bring in the light ... and so does my 'Michael Jewelry' (or, more correctly, jewelry from the Goddess DNA range (www.goddessdna.co.nz), spiritually inspired and created to work with the wearer -- and my goodness they do!) I can't explain everything this jewelry does for me, it would take too long, but the pieces assist me when I feel I need something extra. I do not rely on these tools every moment of my life, and I do not always wear them, but they do help me when I am wearing them. They are an energy in their own right, like a friend. I love each and every one, and that love in itself is a wonderful energy that flows through me, as is the gratitude that I even have these pieces of jewelry in my life, and the same can be said for the KorTars. Consider the tools that are there for you to utilize, and understand them as the energy that they are.
And yet ... we can stand, naked
and still walk this path. The 'toys' just make it all more fun!
Let us live fully,
in honor of those we have loved who have left this mortal realm.
This is our cherished Possum. She
was the first pet we ever adopted, (actually she was my daughter's
pet ... but also my son's best buddy) and we loved her so completely
and unconditionally. She
died on Saturday.
Hit by a car and killed
instantly not ten feet from our driveway -- and we live in such a
short, quiet street I never would have imagined such a thing could
happen. It is
heartbreaking to lose Possum, she was not even four years old. I
never realized I could feel this depth of pain. It has been a
devastating loss for our family.
And yet, despite the pain...I
cherish every moment she was in our lives. We hurt so much because
we loved her so much. If we had known she would only live a short
life, we would still have adopted her into our family. The loss if
deep, but we are so grateful she was a part of our family.
Possum, you entered our lives and
our hearts, and you will live in our hearts forever. You will always
be a member of this family, no matter where you are. Thank you for
teaching us how wonderful a cat can be. You were the coolest cat in
the world. Myanmar
and China. Look at the loss of life, the injury, the grief, and the
trauma. Are we doing
enough to help? I am not
talking about sending money, food, water, medical supplies. I am
talking about healing.
How many of us are sending love, light, healing, comfort and
strength to the people? How many of us are sending healing and love
into the land? That is
where we can make just as great a difference as those who can send
in millions of dollars, and masses of food. We don't all have the
money to send. But we do have love to send.
What if we spent some time each
day sending out love into these devastated areas?
What if we sent healing?
What if we asked for guidance
for those people who have the power to accept help and get that help
to where it is most needed?
What if we ask that those who
are alive and struggling to survive be found?
What if we ask for comfort and
strength for those who are grieving?
What if we ask that all people
learn to never ever build another building that cannot
withstand an earthquake?
What if we ask that all
people, no matter what their beliefs or politics, be willing to
accept help?
What if all help was offered
in the spirit of brotherhood with no conditions attached?
What if we all understood that
the Earth needs healing too?
What if we all understood and
embraced that we are brothers and sisters?
Isn't it time we asked these
questions of ourselves?
Imagine if China chose to respect
Tibet as simply another city of China -- not more or less worthy
than Shanghai, Tianjin, or Shenyang? Imagine if China allowed the
people of Tibet their Monasteries? Imagine if China allowed the
Dalai Lama to come home to a safe and respected Tibet? Imagine how the world would
react? Imagine the tourists that
would flock to see Tibet and meet the Dalai Lama? Imagine how great a spiritual
destination Tibet would become -- and thus, China? Imagine how much respect we
would all have for China? Imagine how the international
community would open up their arms to China? Imagine what would happen if
peaceful resolution (such as the Dalai Lama is pleading for) was
embraced by all sides? Imagine what would happen if
we all chose to respect each other as beloved brothers and
sisters?
Today is the funeral of Sir
Edmund Hillary. It will be a state funeral for one of New Zealand's
most humble, yet beautiful human beings.
Edmund did not set out in life to
become famous, he simply loved to climb, and he developed a
reputation as a skilled, reliable, strong climber. He conquered
Mount Everest, through determination, and sheer guts. He saw the
challenge and he did not give up until he had achieved it.
That is an inspirational! How
many of us look at a challenge and decide it is too hard we will not
try? How many of us never seek to challenge ourselves in any way?
How many of us refuse to live with peace in our hearts?
Edmund Hillary was a peaceful man
who simply got on with what he loved to do.
He was not afraid of failing. He
did not let fear stop him from conquering that mountain.
He is one of New Zealand's
favorite sons, and we all share in the sadness of his passing.
Yet...we can only rejoice that he lived! He was here, he made
his mark, he did not live quietly through life never tackling any
challenge, and die quietly with no one knowing he was ever here.
Can we all take a lesson from
that? I am not saying we have to conquer mountains, but can we at
least live while we are here and touch the lives of those
around us with love and caring? Can we make our mark on the hearts
of other people?
It is one thing to conquer a
mountain, it is another to conquer the hearts of those with whom we
share our days, our hours, or even our minutes in a cafe or on a
bus. Can we exude a peace that touches everyone we pass, leaving no
one unchanged?
We can...but will we try? That is
a challenge to which we may say "no, it is too big, I cannot conquer
that'.
But...we really can conquer it.
With determination and commitment. Edmund
Hillary was a true and honest man. He was not a vain glory seeker.
He was humble, and quiet. He set an example without trying. He lived
as who he was, not pretending to be someone or something that he was
not. He will always be remembered by New Zealanders and by the
Nepalese people who were so important to him. He was a
great man in a time when there a few great men.
I ask you all: please, pick up
the pace, intensify the spiritual work. This is not a year to
slacken nor to roll along at the same pace. This is the year we need
to really work hard, to achieve the maximum results.
And, trust me, we WILL achieve
the maximum results. But only if we work HARD.
Let this be your goal for 2008:
hard work, committed work, and RESULTS.
Consider what you see when you
look at the world. It is not getting better out there, it is getting
worse. The question is: do we stand by and allow that to continue,
or do we do something abut it? Let's do something about it.
If every man, woman and child on
each held the thoughts of Love, Peace and Harmony for just 24 hours,
the world would be a changed place. Since we cannot seem to get
every human being to do that, it is up to the rest of us to hold
Love, Peace and Harmony in our minds as often as we can (24 hours a
day every day if we can manage it).
Our thoughts are powerful. Our
intent is powerful. Let's utilize these strengths to make the world
a better place for our children.
Can we stand back and look at the
world and say : I did not do this, this is not my fault. But, it
does not matter where fault lies, it does not matter who did what to
who. What matters is our ability to hold thoughts that are
beneficial to ALL life on earth. Thoughts of Love, Peace and
Harmony.
Live with love at your centre,
live peacefully, with harmoniously with all life around you. And you
will have an effect. You, change the world with every thought, with
every moment of love and harmony.
Do not feel that you are
insignificant and that you make no change. You are wondrous. You are
magnificent.
You are divine.
2008. A divine year...if we
choose it to be.
The world has lost one of the
greatest men I have ever met. Michael Norman Ronald O'Neill, aged
37, creator of transformational jewelry.
I have known Michael for about 3
years, and own 12 of his creations. His work has allowed me to assist
people with healing, but also to reach higher levels of
understanding within my own existence and with all of my work. He
gave me keys and tools with which to work, in partnership. I
have made sure that even my children have some of his work to aid
them in their lives.
He was, to so many of us, like a
spiritual brother. Though he did not put himself forward and say 'I
am a spiritual teacher' he was a teacher, for we learnt so
much from him. We also all thought we had more time with him. We
never imagined that his life would end so soon.
None of us own the jewelry
Michael created. We share our lives with the pieces, but we
do not own them. They are an energy, with a life of their own.
Michael traveled around the
world, so there are thousands of people out there with what we
fondly call 'Michael's jewelry'. All of you are blessed to have
those pieces. We are all blessed to have known Michael.
A gentle man, with so much
wisdom, and yet so humble. He never pushed you, never tried to make
you do what you did not want to do -- because, as he says, you have
to be ready to do it without any resentment, you have to want to do
it, willingly.
Michael understood the truth of
our existence. He knew what we needed to do, and he devoted his life
to helping us all. His avenue
was the jewelry and his words, his very voice.
It you shared your life with
Michael, for even a moment, you were blessed indeed.
The loss of Michael is a huge
loss for the world. And it is time we all stepped up to the mark and
put ourselves forward. Michael gave us the tools. Let's use them!
Michael O'Neill
PS Michael will not simply rest
in peace, for there is much that he can now do and far greater toys
he can now play with . He is not gone to us, it is simply that his
form and his work are not as we knew them. From all that he did
while he was here, he has gone on to ever greater work. He is an
inspiration to us all, and an example of what can be achieved in this
human lifetime.
Yes, I got a new toy. A new
laptop.
How does this affect and benefit
my writing? So far, my greatest challenge is getting used to the
keyboard. This one is a 'full size' keyboard, and to be honest I
preferred the one on my previous laptop. I am not typing well thus
far, and hence have not really resulted in much
productive work yet.
However, I have , this week, made
the commitment to organize myself and my life. Things are getting
organized, plans are being made, and more time is being given to
work that requires a greater time commitment.
I have faced a number of personal
issues over life balance, and realize that I was tipping the scales
in the wrong direction, the one that was leading towards ill health
and the inability to cope with everything in my life. It was time to
simplify and to ask for help.
I am committing myself to more
work on this website.
What was it that got in the way
so much? The desire for a regular income and the taking on of a
second job working nights that saw me slide into the depths of
exhaustion, to the point where the day I 'lost the plot'
with my family I realized things needed to change. That night I
resigned the night job. The money was not worth my sanity and my
health.
I am now entrusting my life to
the Universe, to the Guidance and Teachers who I know love me and
who are teachings me all the time. It is to them that I entrust
myself. And I will live one day at a time, filling myself with as much love
and joy as I can possibly manage.
For that is the most
important thing, that we be filled with love and joy.
What is it in your life that is
out of balance? What are you doing that is demanding too high a
price? What is it that is preventing you feeling filled with love
and joy? What can you do about it?
It is time to consider your life
carefully. If changes need to be made...make them now, don't wait.
My new laptop means: new work.
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